The fun is over

time flies like crazy when one is not at work. my maternity leave is going to end in one week' time. this is the longest break i had throughout my twelve years of work life.

Jayvier is clingy like a koala bear & will cry for mummy when he's in another person's arms for too long. we had a 'rehearsal' earlier today to have him babysit by his grandpa while hubby & i went for a hair cut. our boy started to wail pitifully even before we kiss him goodbye. it was heartbreaking to hear him cry & i had to try so hard to hold back my tears. my mother-in-law commented he's that attached to me as i have been taking care of him fully for the past four months. the feeling is mutual. i have grown very attached to my boy too. i don't dare to think about how i am going to deal with the emotional trauma when i have to say bye bye to him on 12 December.

to get back into the swing of things at work, i know i must have absolute confidence in my father-in-law. i'm sure Jayvier will be well taken care of by his grandpa. i am just hoping that my boy will not miss me too much or not remember me when i return home after a long day, from 7am to 7pm. what upset me the most is that i am going to miss most of his developmental milestones... i didn't marry a millionaire so no matter how unreluctant i am, it's time for me to snap back to the harsh reality of life & stop dreaming about being a SAHM.